I love to go out with all my girlfriends! A girl’s night!
In this picture I am wearing Primadonna wedges, Miss Sixty jeans and an Intimissimi shirt.
We went to an Aperitivo in Rome a couple of weeks ago.
On another note I wanted to share something here. So, I just opened a TikTok account. It is difficult to be noticed there. I publish things I like however not having a great response and visualization makes me think I am unloveable and undesirable. It is weird. I really love TikTok because it gives me the opportunity to share my dancing, acting and singing skills however my self esteem is having a hard time with the fact that I am not having a great success there.
Just wanted to share this with my lovely followers.
In these pictures I am wearing a Tally Waijl jacket, a pink H&M blouse, Primark jeans, Nike shoes and a Louis Vuitton purse.
We went around Rome, especially Termini and near the Coliseum.
Before going out with this friend of mine I made some TikTok videos.
I must be honest. I feel quite shame and embarrassment for my TikTok videos. I am 31 and never in my life I would have imagined me at this age doing dances on TikTok! I don’t know. I mean, I studied ballet for a couple of years when I was like 5 and 6 years old. Now I publish stupid dancing videos on TikTok because I enjoy it but I don’t feel really skilled at it. I mean, I am quite good looking but at times I feel stupid to just dance like this. I feel as though I am a weirdo.
However, life is beautiful and am just happy to be able to express myself on this blog.
During my youth years, especially my adolescence, I outed my sick feelings, my malaise in crazy ways. I acted crazy. I was not in control of my feelings. This is something that does not make me feel well neither today because I am scared something like that might happen again. I acted crazy with my ex boyfriends. I acted crazy when I was jealous. Not in a rational way. Moreover, something that really does not make me happy is the fact that I drugged myself as well. I used different drugs during my adolescence. A little bit because the people I was going out with used them and because I could not say no to them. Their calling was too strong. I was not able to say a firm “no”.
“I wasn’t searching for something or someone…I was searching for me.”
Who doesn’t love to dance? I don’t know why, but my grandmother as well always loved to dance. She still dances now. Whenever she hears those songs she likes she immediately starts to move in the most happy ways.
In this picture I am wearing an amazing Olivia Cooper dress.
Here I was in my house in Rome, Italy last weekend.
It was a sunny weather, I put on some music and started dancing. Of course I took some pictures!
I put my cellphone in a still place and click click! So many photos!